What have you been putting off doing? Why?

What have I been putting off doing and why?

This is going to take some thinking. I could probably link this with things I am procrastinating about.

I have been home from Vegas for 4.5 months and I have not been out and about like I thought that I would. I haven’t even grabbed a cup of coffee and did one of my favorite things, sitting by Lake Washington. I also have not seen very many people. Plus, I have not stepped out to really do too much as Lady Flava.

When I was in Vegas, I missed my people so much and was grateful to be able to phone home and talk to the few that I did stay in touch with. And then I spoke about how much I missed the water and sitting by Lake Washington, the beauty of Seattle with the snow-capped mountains and having easy access to water and beautiful foliage.

What is my why, why have I put off sitting by the Lake and seeing my favorite people.

Possibly, it is because I am so content in being back home. I appreciate the home that my daughter opened for me to live with she and my grandbaby. I feel more and more at peace. What I craved while in Vegas…was probably just needing to have my spirit feel at peace. My job brings me peace and my family bring me peace.

I have talked about needing to heal from the life I experienced in Vegas, and this is true. But I feel like Vega is a very distant memory and that life no longer bothers me.

But there is something that is holding me back from getting out amongst people. I don’t know if that has to do with COVID or not. There is a part of me that wonders if I have just gotten so used to not being around people and have become so comfortable in being with myself. 3 years of living through COVID in Vegas to when the doors reopened for shows to take place again, I only went to a few shows and then lost interest.

I haven’t even attended any creative events; music showcases or art showings to experience what is now going on in Seattle while I have been gone.

Why…I think this is something that I need to really think about and find out what is causing me to not see family and friends, to not go out to events and to not sit by Lake Washington.

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